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Do you ever feel unworthy? Of God’s love? Of your husband’s love? Do you ask yourself How could God even love me after all of the things I have done? How could my husband love me if he knew everything about me? I have! COUNTLESS times.
God’s answer: Because He gave His only son so that YOU may live!
I’ve mentioned the book Wife After God: Drawing Closer to God & Your Husband before and how incredible its impact has been on my life. There are three specific moments I remember that were important steps in me seeking a relationship with God-reading this devotional being one of those steps. God knows I have always had a passion for learning how to be a godly wife towards Luke and that he is incredibly important to me, so He knew He could get my attention with the title of the devotional. Plus my best friend, Haleigh, had mentioned it to me a few months back but I kind of brushed it off then because there was a lot going on in our family at that time. God knew that I was always interested in trying to find ways to better my marriage and build it into the Christian marriage He intended it on being. So He placed a picture of that book right in front of me on Facebook where He knew He’d get my attention (something I hate to admit). I hesitated on spending the money because I needed a Bible, too if I wanted to follow along with the devotional. But I closed my eyes and clicked that PURCHASE button anyways. And boy am I glad I did!
In Jennifer’s book, there is a part on Day 5 of the devotional that was so powerful to me that I have to share:
Struggling to lift up His own weight, He staggered down a dirt path. Pain radiated throughout His body, His Spirit crushed by insult and mockery. Despite the excruciating affliction, He continued to walk, knowing that His destination would lead Him to even more suffering. Heavy, splintering wood pressed against His back, joining in with gravity to pull this man to the dusty ground. Anguish gripped His heart, yet He walked. Blood dripped from raw wounds, yet He carried on. There was no rescue plan. This man knew that He would experience death, but only after the shock of agony pierced His flesh. Still, He walked on, headed toward the place where He would breathe His last. His motivation was you.
THIS is why YOU ARE WORTHY! Jesus did this for YOU, just as you are. He loves you selflessly and without conditions. Nothing you have done or could ever do could prevent Him from wanting to know you and wanting you to experience a relationship with Him. It is NEVER too late to go to God, to ask for forgiveness, and to initiate a relationship with God. It is never too late to completely surrender yourself to God and ask Him to help you live out His will for you. This will lead to an unimaginable amount of happiness and peace in your life.
This is also why you are worthy of your husband’s love as well! Never doubt it for a minute. Doubt and fear can rob you of so much joy and ruin a marriage. And it prevents you and your husband from becoming closer to each other. No matter what you have done or what you will do, God asks your husband to also love you without conditions. To love you in the good times and the bad times, all the days of your life. Instead of hiding things from him that you are afraid to come forth with, reveal yourself to him. Break down those barriers and become more intimate with your husband.
God also calls you to love your husband no matter what he does. He is worthy of your love no matter what sin he has committed past or present. I personally know that Luke could commit any sin and I would be able to forgive him. I know many people may think that is crazy, that that is like I’m letting him walk all over me. But it’s the complete opposite! That is what makes me STRONG! It makes me the wife God asks me to be to Luke every day. To forgive as He forgives. That is how you achieve true intimacy with your husband and with your God!
Matthew 6:14-15 says:
If you forgive others their transgressions, your heavenly Father will forgive you. But if you do not forgive others, neither will your Father forgive your transgressions.
Matthew 18: 21-22 also says:
Then Peter approaching asked him, “Lord, if my brother sins against me, how often must I forgive him? As many as seven times?” Jesus answered, “I say to you, not seven times but seventy-seven times.”
This is how God loves you. This is how much God loves you. Love your husband and forgive him every time just as God loves and forgives you every time you hurt Him. This is what makes you worthy of God’s love and your husband’s love! 🙂
What makes me feel like I am worthy to create this blog and tell others about Christ?
You have no idea the doubt that has come along with starting this.
However, God has not only made it apparent what He wants me to do, but He’s been pretty darn persistent with me and extremely straight forward. Every time I’m thinking God, what makes me worthy to do this? I’ve only just begun to know You! I’m sure there are people thinking I think too highly of myself while all I can wonder is why I should even do this? I don’t know enough to tell others about You!
My most straightforward answer from God came the exact day I asked God this question (He wasted no time in answering my questions!). It was in my Catholic Mommy Devotional called Small Steps for Catholic Moms: Your Daily Call to Think, Pray, and Act (which can be found on my right sidebar or at the bottom of my page for mobile users).
Think about what you are good at. Can you write? Sing? Make people laugh? Choose one of your gifts and use it deliberately to bless someone else today. Thank God for your gifts and for the opportunity to share them.
OK, God, got it! 🙂
I have learned I am worthy because I am telling people MY story! My way of finding God is what makes me unique and my story unique. God wants me to share with others the goodness and peace I have experienced from getting to know Him so that you may experience the same! So that you may experience a relationship with Him. So that you may learn how to experience an incredible God-centered marriage!
If you have any questions, please feel free to comment below! Love you all <3