Is motherhood something you struggle with daily? At the end of every day, do you often find yourself replaying the events and wishing you would have reacted better to each one with your child? Do you lay in bed at the end of the day with tears streaming down your face feeling once again like you’ve failed at the most important job you have in the world?
Many nights have I lay in bed next to my husband and told him I’m not cut out for it. That no matter how hard I try, something always prevents me from being better to our children.
This post is something that has been tugging at my heart for a while. The words have been sitting on the notepad on my phone for months now, so why haven’t I been able to say anything?
Because motherhood is the most difficult part of my life. And admitting how often I fail at it is not easy.
I’ve never struggled so much every. single. day. with something. Anyone can be a mother, but being a GOOD mother – the mother that God calls me to be – is something that takes more divine intervention than any other thing in this world.
I often wonder why on earth God chose me for something like this if it’s something I fail at daily – why He would give me such a difficult job that I rarely complete correctly.
However, the more time I spend with God, the more I have finally realized why motherhood has been the most difficult calling in my life!
Because being a mother who loves God with all her heart and a mother who is dying to teach her children about Christ is the most threatening thing to Satan!
Everything begins with your mother! How you are treated in the womb, how you are cared for as an infant, how you are disciplined as a toddler, how you are talked to as a teenager. Satan will throw anything he can to intercept parents teaching their children about our incredible, loving Heavenly Father.
He’ll throw exhaustion your way so you’ll be too tired to read that Baby Bible Story and say prayers that night and rush the kids off to bed instead. He doesn’t want you teaching your children that God is someone we can talk to as a friend, someone who will sit with us, listen to us, and help us.
He’ll throw fear your way as a first time mom so you worry about sticking to a strict schedule or googling all the things that could go wrong with a runny nose instead of looking at your newborn and seeing the beautiful brand new hope in the world. He’ll suck those precious first few months dry if you let him!
He’ll throw social media your way so you ignore your children and don’t bother to monitor what they’re watching on TV. He’ll make sure to throw something nasty on that screen to begin taking the innocence away from your babies.
He’ll throw anxiety and stress your way so instead of holding your son when he wants to snuggle while you have 3 other kids screaming, you feel overwhelmed and you yell and give him the iPad instead and tell him to go sit on the couch and play some games.
He’ll throw impatience your way so when your daughter does something completely unacceptable, you let your emotions overrun you and you scream at her instead of being slow to anger and quick to listen.
He’ll throw resentment with your spouse your way so your children witness a heated fight with yelling so they do not learn how to love unconditionally in a marriage and be quick to forgive. Satan definitely doesn’t want that happening!
He’ll even throw the media into it and say something ridiculous like it costs $233,000 to raise a child to completely scare any married couples away from ever believing they could have a child. These people will NEVER experience the pure joy of being parents! Satan LOVES that!
The enemy is nasty and he hates children because they hold so much hope. He will try to destroy their innocence as quickly as possible! He will try to prevent them from experiencing a loving home. And when they do have a loving home? He attacks the parents and their marriage.
He has such a tight grip on your motherhood because you hold so much hope for the world with that job.
You can change the world right in your very home with that tiny baby whom you are nursing to sleep and stroking his bald head as he peacefully drifts off.
You as a mother have the most important job in the world.
So why has God made me a mother when He knows it is something I struggle with?
He made me a mother because He knows I have the strength to fight the world for my children!
He made me a mother because He knows I so badly want to know Him and, as I grow in my relationship with Him, I won’t be able to contain my excitement and joy about it! He knows I will teach my children the incredible peace that comes with knowing our wonderful Father.
He made me a mother because He knows I can raise my 4 little boys into men of warriors for Christ!
He made me a mother because He knows I can reflect the love, hope, and light of Christ right in my own home when I lean on him through prayer.
He knows I can fight Satan’s grip with prayer!
When you encounter a tough situation with your child next, remember the hope that lies in those little eyes looking up at you. Remember to respond with patience. Remember to listen. Remember to respond with love. Remember to be incredibly and painfully slow to anger.
Remember how our Father treats us.
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