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For all of you military wives out there, I understand. Know that you are not alone.
I know how it feels when you’re laying in bed at night, looking at his pillow with tears rolling down your face, praying to God and begging Him to just let you see your husband in your dreams that night and to feel yourself in his arms again.
I know what it’s like to say goodbye to him with your first child, a 12-day old baby in your arms and have to learn how to be a new parent alone.
I know what it’s like to be watching your husband start to walk away in the airport and not say goodbye to his 2 year old and 5 month old twins because he just can’t physically do it, it is too painful for him.
I know what it’s like to be at the bottom of the stairs and hear his quiet sniffling while he’s in bed with his 4 year old the night before leaving for his 3rd deployment and then hear a tiny voice say, “What’s wrong, Daddy?”
I know what it’s like to help him pack for his deployment while you both have tears rolling down your face but you want to try to enjoy your last few hours together, too.
I know what it’s like to walk through the airport holding his hand, trying to have a happy conversation, but once you sit down at the gate with him, you just completely fall apart and start crying in his arms.
I know what it’s like to want to stay so strong for him, but just you can’t.
I know what it’s like to hold back the tears every time someone says “Thank you for your service, sir,” to feel the pride in your heart for how thankful you are to have him as your husband. But at the same time, feel the tears begin to well up again because you were just reminded that he was leaving.
I know what it’s like to be hugging him that last time, being in his arms, trying to memorize that feeling, hoping it will last until you see him again.
I know what it’s like when you hear over the intercom “Last call to board the flight!” and he holds onto your very pregnant 8-month belly because that’s the last time he will touch his baby until he meets him the next year.
I know what it’s like to be crying for the entire walk through the airport back to your car, as if in slow motion, not even caring who sees you because you just had to say goodbye to your best friend AGAIN. You feel as if your heart is actually breaking and it hurts more than anything you’ve ever experienced. The goodbyes seem to get MORE difficult.
I’ve been there and you are NOT alone!
I know the overwhelming feeling of loneliness that follows after saying goodbye to your husband. I beg you, trust me when I say to go to God!
He knows how much we love our husbands, how much it hurts when we are apart.
He knows how much we mean to each other and why the goodbyes hurt as much as they do.
Nobody knows our relationship with our husbands better than God! No one can comfort us more during these times better than God Himself. He wants to comfort us when we go through these emotions.
In God’s eyes, as husband and wife, we are one person, so we lose a part of ourselves when we are apart. No wonder the goodbyes are almost unbearable! After going through three deployments and those hundreds of emotions that came along with them, I’m handling this deployment better than ever because I’m FINALLY going to God. I have never felt more at peace in my life since “discovering” God and I cannot wait to experience that with my husband when he gets home!
God wants us to come to Him with ANYTHING! He wants to walk next to us and talk with us. He wants us to cry to Him, to rejoice in Him, to seek Him. He is part of us, every single one of us. Absolutely nothing can prevent Him from loving us – we are ALL worthy of His love! Romans 8:37-39 says:
No, in all these things we conquer overwhelmingly through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor present things, nor future things, nor powers, nor heights, nor depth, nor any other creature will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Whatever you go through in life, whether it be something as heartbreaking as a deployment, something as difficult as a loss of a loved one, or even something as wonderful as the birth of a child, know that God is right next to you through every single thing. He’s your shoulder to lean on, your hand to hold, your friend to talk to. Isaiah 43: 2 says:
When you pass through waters, I will be with you; through rivers, you shall not be swept away. When you walk through fire, you shall not be burned, nor will flames consume you.
Absolutely nothing we go through will we ever go through alone!
Please take time to watch this video and listen to the words. I can’t even begin to describe the amount of comfort it has brought to me!