This year for Easter, for the first time in my life, I have learned how to have a true relationship with God with the beginning being complete and total humility.
And it is changing my life.
Lent is the time to draw closer to your Heavenly Father, to renew your relationship with Him. It’s time to finally stop in the chaos surrounding you and listen to Him.
Because He has been pursuing you your entire life.
He loves you and wants you to follow Him because He knows if you do that, then you will have so much joy in your life.
We are all like children who ran away from home when we start basing our understanding on the world’s standards and not God’s. God wants you to return home to Him because He misses His child so much!
He wants to you, His child, to be happy beyond measure!
And you become overwhelmed with that kind of joy when you allow God completely into your heart.
How do you allow Him into your heart? How do you completely surrender yourself to Him?
Read further and follow my lead because I will show you how. I am going to share with you and with God the things I battle with every single day of my life. The thoughts that embarrass me and the actions I’m ashamed of.
I pray this post guides you and shows you how to stop and listen to God and begin pursuing Him back. I pray it speaks to you and that you may even be able to relate to a few of these to know that you are not alone in your battles.
Why am I doing this? Isn’t it embarrassing revealing the thoughts that haunt me on a daily basis?
I’m doing it because walking humbly with God means being completely honest with Him. That is the very first step in beginning the most amazing relationship you will ever experience in your life here on earth – your relationship with God. I’m experiencing God’s love and grace for me more every single day and I cannot help but be so completely overwhelmed by the happiness that comes with it that I HAVE to share it! I HAVE to tell others about this incredible love story – the most amazing and the most REAL love story you will ever hear of because YOU can experience it, too!
You have been told, O mortal, what is good,
and what the Lord requires of you:
Only to do justice and to love goodness,
and to walk humbly with God.
Learning Complete & Absolute Humility
This is me being real. It’s me being real with you and being real with God. It’s me trying humility for the first time in my life. These words have been on my heart for a while now so I feel like the best way to release these feelings (and maybe even have someone join me in this cry) is to reveal my heart at the foot of the cross, humbly, honestly, and completely.
Lent is about becoming closer to God, it’s about refreshing your relationship with Him, it’s about learning how to truly love Him, it’s about learning to serve others, and appreciate how much He loves us. I want to lay everything at the foot of the cross this Lent, everything that has been weighing so heavily on my heart. And I pray I can encourage you to do the same. I want to finally rid the lies that Satan has been whispering to me, “You’re not worth His love. You keep failing, you’ll never be good enough.”
Revealing My Deepest Cries out to God & Laying Them at the Foot of that Powerful, Loving Cross
I want to stop yelling at my children when a situation gets to chaotic. When I have two year old twins hanging on my legs whining “Mom” repeatedly, so much that I want to rip my hair out, I want to learn HOW to find peace in that situation. Because I know with God, even that is possible. I want to invite God into that chaos so I’m actually grateful for it, for having so many children who love me and want my attention. I want to turn my attitude into gratitude. I do not want them to grow up with that impatience instilled in them and pass that onto the next generation of our family. I want to stop that now! Father, please grant me Your patience and love so that I may love them like You – tenderly and being slow to anger.
I want to stop picking out my husband’s flaws and mumbling in my mind when he does something (or doesn’t do something) that bothers me. When he changes a diaper differently than me, I want to be thankful for a loving husband who wants to help me and take care of his children rather than tell him he needs to change the diaper a certain way. Father, help me to see MY flaws first! Help me to humbly lay them at the foot of Your cross so I may learn to love my husband the way You do!
I want to stop feeling like an ugly woman when I look down at the pouch that remains after carrying my four children. I want to stop feeling unworthy of my husband’s love because I no longer have the body I did when we were first married. I do not want to get caught up in the world’s standards. I do not want to determine my worth based on the number on the scale or the size of my pants. Father, help me to see my worth through YOUR eyes rather than the world’s eyes!
I want to stop thinking I’m a better friend than someone else because our methods are different. I want it to stop being a competition. I want peace in my mind! Father, PLEASE teach me HUMILITY! I do NOT want to think like this! Please remove this pride from my heart so I may love like you love and become more intimate with You than ever before. Help me to be the friend Christ would be!
I want to stop thinking I’m a better mom than someone else because I breastfeed and she doesn’t, because I feed organic and she doesn’t, because I stay at home and she doesn’t, because I co-sleep and she doesn’t, or because I read Scripture to my children and she doesn’t. PLEASE, Father! Remove this from my heart! Help me to stop judging people according to the world’s standards and rather see our mothers through YOUR eyes! You are the judge, not me. Please take over the throne of my heart – I am stepping down! Clearly, if a mother loves her children with her every being, that’s all that matters!
I want to stop thinking I’m a better wife than others because, You and I both know, Lord, I surely am not! I may like to think I treat my husband better because I do not yell at him or disrespect him more than other wives seem to. But I’m a human and a deeply flawed one! I know for a fact I’ve been disrespectful towards my husband in the past and I’m sure it will happen again in the future. It is so easy to succumb to the sin of pride! I want to stop raising my eyebrow when I see a wife doing something to her husband or speaking a certain way to him that I would “never” do. We all sin and we all have pasts and I do not know the lives of these other women. I do not know the pain behind their sins. Only You do, Father! Give me Your eyes so I may see sins like these like these and pray for someone who acts like this rather than sit on my pedestal in my mind and think, “I would never!”
I want to stop gossiping about others. This is something I am way too easily sucked into and a temptation I often give nto. Why is it so easy to do this, Father?! When I am sitting there surrounded by people, why is it so easy to join right into that conversation of those people talking poorly about someone else? Why is it so difficult for me to handle it the way You would? Please, Father! Grant me the strength to handle these situations the way You ask me to!
I want to see someone homeless on the side of the road and my default thoughts to be compassion, not “if I give them money, they might use it for drugs.” Give me Your generous heart, Jesus, so I would do what You would do in this situation!
I want to read the Bible and not instantly think “I know someone who should be reading this message.” I’m so sick of my ungodly thoughts, Father! I’m tired of shaking my head at myself all too often, wondering if You are even happy with me and the things I do. Father, save me from the thoughts this world shoves into my mind! Save me from the comparison game! Help me to read Your beautiful Truth and genuinely want to learn and try to better MYSELF and not try to point it out to someone else who I think needs it more than I do.
I want to stop thinking someone is better than me because they drive a nicer car or make more money. I want to stop thinking I’m better than someone – higher in society – because I have a home and food on the table. No one is above me nor beneath me. You love us all the same. Help me to treat everyone equally, Father! Help me to see everyone according to YOUR society, not ours!
I want to stop thinking someone skinnier than me is more beautiful than me. And I want to stop feeling better about myself when I am around someone who weighs more than me. I’m so tired of these loud thoughts, Father! I’m tired of these constant lies Satan whispers into my ears, so often that I believe some of them!
I want to have the strength to put down my damn phone when my children need my attention or when my husband says my name. I want to give my attention where it matters and where God asks me to. Not sit there mindlessly scrolling through things on a screen that only worsen my mood anyways. I want to stop craving that screen time when I have a moment of silence. You are pursuing me in those moments of silence and I need to listen to You. The first thing I want to reach for in those moments of silence is Your Word, Father! Not something that distracts me from it.
I want to not become so easily distracted when my husband needs my attention. I want to be able to stop the never-ending list running through my mind of things I need to do when he begins telling me about his day or about something that may be bothering him. Please, I beg You Father, help me to give him my undivided attention! I WANT to hear about his day! And I WANT to know when something is bothering him! So why is it so difficult to focus? Help me to listen the way You listen to me!
I want to be the humble servant You ask me to be, the person You created me to be. I want to be humble like Jesus was. I want to be able to immediately admit my faults to you and those I hurt and ask for Your forgiveness. For I want nothing more than to please You and to become closer to You with every breath of my life! Please remove my pride from my heart!
I want to stop being so sensitive to comments or looks and immediately default to manipulation or defensiveness. Sensitivity is even rooted in pride! Thank You, Father, for pointing out this sin that I didn’t even notice. Let me accept gentle correction with humility and gratitude rather than pouting and being manipulative – trying to make the other person feel badly about pointing out a fault of mine. Sometimes I need to hear it!
I want to stop worrying so much about finances. You tell us worry is rooted in pride, that when we worry we tell you that we know all of the things that could possibly happen and You aren’t big enough to manage those things. Only You know everything. Please remove my fear rooted in pride, Father!
I want to stop making excuses for not going to church. I tell You I want You at the center of my marriage and for my children to grow up knowing and loving You, but how can those things happen when I don’t put You first? Oh, Lord, give me the conviction and the strength to know when I’m wrong! When the excuses are just that – excuses.
I want to stop being a people-pleaser! This completely drains me and it’s not even worth my time and energy. It doesn’t matter! Help me to be a GOD-pleaser!
I want to stop saying ‘yes’ to activity after activity, afraid of missing a great opportunity, filling up my schedule and ultimately leaving me exhausted yet still so hungry. When I do this, I leave no time to find out Your will for me. Help me to discern what things are Your will for me and what things distract me from it!
I want forgiveness to come quickly to my heart and be quick to offer an apology, too. I don’t want pride holding onto me any longer. I want to forgive as You forgive, no matter how many times I am hurt by someone. Because that is what You do for me!
I want to step out of my comfort zone and start working for YOU!
I want to hear YOU! There’s so much noise and chaos down here, Father. Please let me find You, let me find Your stillness and Your love through it all.
I want to hear You above it all!
Our Flesh & Heart Will Fail God, But He Uses Our Brokenness!
God knows we are not perfect and cannot be perfect because we are humans. God does not call us to be successful, He calls us to be faithful.
I want to share three hope-filled verses that I have learned to so deeply cherish, verses I cling onto when I become frustrated with myself for succumbing to temptation and failing my Heavenly Father.
1. 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 says:
So we do not lose heart. Though our outer nature is wasting away, our inner nature is being renewed every day. For this slight momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, because we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen; for the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.
We are told to not be discouraged when we try so hard to follow God’s Word but still fall short of what He asks of us. God knows when we truly struggle and offers His beautiful gift of grace when we admit our wrongdoings and ask for Him to forgive us.
*I just have to say this to clarify. There is a difference between sinning and truly asking forgiveness versus sinning only because Jesus offers forgiveness. God knows the intentions of your heart. Please do not take advantage of our Lord’s death for us!
2. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says:
His grace is sufficient for us and His power is made perfect in our weaknesses.
Elizabeth Foss from the Blessed Is She Lenten devotional points out the beautiful reality that “the life of Jesus is exalted in our daily stumbling and failing.”
3. Psalm 73:26 says:
My flesh and my heart fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
We fail on this earth because this world is not God’s. He separated Himself from us when original sin entered into the world through Adam and Eve. Since sin has entered the world, it has made it extremely difficult to follow God’s Word because temptation is swallowing us up daily. But because of our amazing Savior, Jesus Christ, the gates of Heaven were opened for us and the possibility of living with our Heavenly Father again has been made possible.
This is why Easter is such an incredible thing to celebrate! Your flesh and your heart may fail but the Lord will be your strength to persevere in your faith and your purpose of spreading the Gospel during your time here on earth. 🙂
Finally Getting It!
I also want to point out three verses that direct us how to return to our Heavenly Father’s arms. Please keep these constantly in your mind and close to your heart! They are so very important!
1. 2 Chronicles 7:14 says:
If then my people, upon whom my name has been pronounced, humble themselves and pray, and seek my face and turn from their evil ways, I will hear them from heaven and pardon their sins and heal their land.
Elizabeth Foss also mentions in the Blessed Is She Lenten devotional that “the beautiful thing about an apology well-offered is that often it makes of the relationship very fertile ground for growth.”
Imagine your relationships in your life as a garden. When you humbly go to your Heavenly Father and admit your faults and tell Him how sorry you are with true remorse for your sins, that creates very fertile ground for growth in your relationship with Him! It plants a tiny little seed that, with constant care, love, and attention, will blossom into the most amazing relationship you could ever imagine! Your relationship with God will be your most powerful relationship and the most beautiful plant in that garden.
We are given trials in this life because they keep us humble. They help us realize how much we need God! They help us come out stronger and wiser and closer to our Heavenly Father. When we lean on God during our trials, He will bring us rest. (Matthew 11:28)
We are not meant to face these battles alone. He already won the war for us! That is why He commands us not to worry (Matthew 6:34) and to bring our burdens to Him.
2. James 4:7 says:
Submit yourselves to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.”
It’s time to rise up as God’s people.
It’s time to drop to your knees, to go humbly to your God. This makes the enemy TREMBLE!
It’s time to tell Him how sorry you are for the sins you have committed that He carried on that cross for you.
It’s time to close your eyes and completely open your heart to your Heavenly Father. When you admit your faults and humbly ask for His forgiveness, He wants nothing more than to have you back in His arms! You are His child! And He wants you to come back home.
3. And Joel 2:12-13 says:
Return to me with your whole heart,
with fasting, and weeping, and mourning;
Rend your hearts, not your garments,
and return to the Lord, your God.
For gracious and merciful is he,
slow to anger, rich in kindness,
and relenting in punishment.
The Lord loves you. He loves you like a good parent should. There are consequences when you do not listen to Him but when you realize you make a mistake and you are truly sorry for the sins you have committed and for hurting Him, He will always welcome you home with open, loving arms. He is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, rich in kindness, and relenting in punishment. Because Jesus died on the Cross for us, we receive new mercy and love from God every single day!
I highly encourage you to read Luke 15:11-32, the Parable of the Lost (or Prodigal) Son. I’m sure you’ve heard of it, but have you actually read the whole story? When you read it, imagine yourself as the lost son and God as the Father in the story. It will bring tears to your eyes as you get a small glimpse of the love God has for you!
My Prayer for Humility to my Father!
Please join me in this prayer as you return to your Heavenly Father this Lenten season! Prepare your heart for the most amazing gift we have been given – our Savior Jesus Christ!
I’ve dug myself such a hole in the ways of this world but I’m finally seeing Your light by looking up instead of looking down and digging further.
I’m finally climbing towards You instead of piling more dirt on top of me.
Even when I miss a step and fall down that hole a little again, I know You are there waiting for me, encouraging me to climb back up and take another step towards You.
I can feel Your light as I climb up closer, I can feel Your absolute love for me.
Thank You for never leaving me even though I was not always looking in Your direction during my life.
And thank You for always pursuing me so I could hear Your voice and finally direct my attention YOUR way!
Help encourage me to continue to work my way towards You, Father! And experience the ultimate reward of joining You in Heaven!
I’m so sorry that my sins brought you to the Cross, Jesus! I am so sorry I inflicted those wounds on you, that I caused you to experience such an amount of pain. I am so sorry! Thank you for loving me so much that you would endure crucifixion for me!
I ask this in Jesus’ name, AMEN!
I pray this post helps you take the first step in walking towards your Heavenly Father this Easter season! I pray you return to Him with your whole heart and can begin to experience the most incredible relationship you can ever imagine!
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